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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

The house that built me

In a small canyon just inland from Malibu Beach, a small community is born. A modest house with a yard that overlooked rolling hills of green. Everything brand new, including me. As I moved into this house while still in my moms tummy.
A yard that appears to cascade right into a canyon, that when the rains came down, so did the yard. 40 feet of it, slipped right into the neighbors yard. It took a lot of men and several months to build back the yard.
Built right into a quiet canyon, that every fire season brought the animals to our front door, including the largest rattlesnake you'd ever seen. And at night the howl of coyotes and the hoots of owls disturb the slumber of young children.
A dead end street that meant little or no traffic. It meant children playing in the street, and block parties every summer. It meant Popsicles and play until the streetlights came on.
A neighborhood that took on the true meaning. Neighbors who cared, who watched out for each other's children. It was a Mom who knew each child and to this day can tell you each and every one of their birthdays. A neighborhood in which you moved in there was a welcoming committee.
A house that brought a first cat, a first dog and the heartbreak of the loss of both. Where in the yard at the corner of that long concrete block wall a hamster was buried Dreams built, stories told, family togetherness and holidays of love.
A place where the remembrance of a father is held, the promise of a new father began and the tragedy of innocence lost. A room that held secrets of a teen, from love to loss to feelings of loneliness were expressed to a bed that was sympathetic.
Tough years and joyful years, a high school graduation and an 18th birthday celebrated in style. A Mother - daughter relationship was formed, a friendship of lasting love, and 20 years of memories. This is what is in the house that built me!
Brought to you by MamaKat


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Old Friends

Please meet starting from the left.....

"Froggie", "Chimney Mouse", and "Monkey"

Froggie belongs to Christopher, he carries him everywhere and he loves him like no other! He carried him all over, sleeps with him at nap, and at night. When he is upset he asks for mommy and Froggie!

Chimney Mouse is mine.....yes that is right I still have my favorite stuffed animal from when I was a little girl, and as you can see he was well loved! I would cry when my mom washed him and hung him out on the clothes line by his ears to dry. My grandmother sewed his arms and legs back on several times. And when my dog chewed off one of his eyes my mom so lovingly put it back on.

Monkey is Thomas'. He carried him around everywhere for a long time....until Toy Story 3, now he seems to have an adversion to Monkey's. But he still loves him.

I hope they will keep their favorite stuffed animals for a lifetime no matter what they look at like I did!



Sunday, March 27, 2011

A Fish Out Of Water

A bark in the middle of the night, waking me from a dead sleep.


I hear that familiar sound again, the struggle for breath, a wheeze so loud I wonder if it has woke the neighbors. Then, another bark.


A cry and I go running. I'm taken back to that 1st night I ever heard that horrific sound. The night that had me flying to the ER at 1am, just praying that the silence in the rear facing car seat meant nothing more than sleep.


Crying doesn't help, it actually makes it worse. I pick him up and hold him upright against me, so I can feel his chest. See if I feel that familiar chest cave that means a trip to the ER is inevitable.


He fights against me, he's barking, and pulling and struggling. His eyes are wide, the tears are imminent, and I am helpless. I can't help but think the phrase "a fish out of water".


He wants nothing more than to lay against me, have me make it all better, close his eyes as he drifts off to a peaceful sleep.


A commotion, a machine and medication. Breathe.....


Inhale deeply, my mind racing, wide awake now. Praying again....just let it calm! Let him breathe.... in and out


In and out


quiet...sound....breath.


I want to take it all away, take it from him, so he won't have to feel this helpless again.


I want him to run and jump and play with his brother and his friends. I don't want him to be told to "take it easy" all the time. I don't want to remind him what happens when he plays to hard. I don't want to hear him wheezing, struggling, barking. I don't want to worry that the next time might land him in the hospital.


I want him to be free of this. I want him to live with no breathing struggles.


But for now, this is our life with Christopher's Asthma.


This post came after one really bad Asthma attack once again for him, a trip to the doc, breathing treatments and steroids were needed to make it all okay again.


Wednesday, March 23, 2011

It's all about the pants....

And the purse! (forgive the pic quality)

Cheryl, alongside Mandy and Morgan
While I was at BloggyBootCamp in San Diego, I met so many of my fav bloggers. Mandy who I just adore, and Morgan, who is cute as a button, and her mom is too! Carolyn, whom I have more in common with than I knew!! I can't wait to get together with all of these ladies again!


And one of those people was Cheryl, who writes for Mommy Pants

Cheryl, Kat, and Me
I've been reading her blog for the longest. Her, along with Nichole at In these small moments drew me into The Red Dress Club. I was inspired, I was touched, and I was hooked. I met Nichole briefly at the San Francisco Bloggy Boot Camp, but we didn't have much time to talk.


I did meet Cheryl, a true sweetheart, I heart her from the beginning. She has got a heart of gold and her blog is touching, it's hilarious and it will suck you in! You'll want to meet her too! Have your people contact her people to see when she's available!


I also met another celebrity, she was accompanying Cheryl, this one is HUGE, and I was honored to meet her..... none other than Pursey Galore. Now if you don't know anything about Pursey, you want to learn more. I've read about some of her travels and you'll never believe where she goes!

Pursey represents herself all over the states, in awareness of the American Stroke Association, which I learned has touched many people in ways I can't imagine.


If you are interested in meeting Pursey Galore, talk to Lori from In pursuit of Martha Points She can tell you where Pursey can be found next!
I can't wait to meet up with all these amazing women and more....Do I hear BlogHer?


Sunday, March 20, 2011

Learning from the best

I just got back from Bloggy Boot Camp in San Diego, it was so amazing!

There is so much to learn and still so much I do NOT know, but I am working my way up to being a super blogger! Ok maybe not, but I do hope to put so much of what I am learning to use.

What did I learn you ask?

Well 1st let me just say, Have you ever read Little Miss Momma? She is so stinkin' adorable, and her blog? So full of fun, it's a must read! And I am making a mental note to never have pic taken with her, she's so cute I'll look like an old hag! hee hee

She was the 1st speaker and I learned so much, but most importantly, to BE ME!
Dorkiness and all. I will never be all those things that I may want to be, but I can be what I already am, just me. Stick around, I'm a total dork, but I'm also a mom to two wonderful little boys, I am wife to my love, Steven, and I am a friend to many. I'm working on my writing, but keep that as a separate blog, it's sometimes fun, and sometimes scary and sometimes depressing, but it's all the inner me.

Then there was Anna Viele, She was a definite trooper, fighting off morning sickness, she knocked her presentation out of the park! She talked about finding your story....it actually reminded me of the movie Pretty Woman you know in the beginning and the end you hear the guy saying "What's your dream, everybody got a dream", What's your story, have a story for your blog and strengthen it, build it, and live it. It is with your story that you will build and maintain a trust with your readers.

Next up.... Mama Mary. OMG This woman has so much energy, I heart her already! And I learned all the do's and don't about vlogging. I don't think I am at all ready to be vlogging, but who knows, I may just steal the hubs flip video and go to work. But If you have never met me, you will see all of me, exposed and raw in a vlog....I'm scared already! Aren't you?

Last up before Lunch was Denae, she is an absolute gem when it comes to writing, her message was "Find your voice", and she is hilarious! If you have a chance to run by her blog, do so, she'll keep you entertained.

All that just before lunch!

I have always talked about how I do not get star stuck, I've worked with masses of celebrities, I have heard their deepest secrets, I've been to their parties and they are no different than you or I....but show me a blogger, and I get all blog struck!

I met so many amazing, empowering women who I admire, and so many more left that I did NOT meet.....hopefully at BlogHer!

Tiffany from SITS looked beautiful as always, and I am still blog struck by her, she is so much fun to talk to, and she puts together one hell of a conference!
Tiffany, Fran and Kat


I met Fran from SITS for the 1st time and she is an absolute DOLL!! I love everything she is doing with SITS and I still do miss her old blog!


Angie from Seven Clown Circus, I have wanted to meet her for SO long, she is a total sweetheart, and? She looks EXACTLY like she does on her blog! I still can't believe she has 5 kids!!!! I heart her already!

Angie, seen here with Morgan from The Little Hen House, and she is just adorable as well.


Kat from Mama Kat's Losin' It, I have also wanted to meet her for so long! I think I stalked her silently for many years, no not really, but I have been a long time reader. And the fact that I met her....like live and in person, I was once again blog struck! She is funny and personable, and I hope she is feeling better!!


My brain is still processing things that I learned and the amazing women that I met! I am sure you will hear so much more about this enlightening endeavor!!


Thursday, March 17, 2011

Talk to me...for an hour

Mom: Hello?

Me: Hi-row? (Yes I'm all stupid sounding when I call my mom)

Mom: what's up?

Me: Not much, just sitting here with the (Thomas stop that) boys

Mom: and how are they?

Me: Oh fine, you know same (Christopher, come here) ole, same ole

Mom: So what do you think you'll do today?

Me: Oh I don't (*SCREAM* ACK! THOMAS?? Why did you do that to your brother? Don't hit him, or push him over) anyway, I am not sure....but I have an hour before we can go (Christopher, come get this book) anywhere, I'm waiting (Thomas? I gave that book to your brother, don't take it from him) for the clothes in the dryer, it has (Thomas, I said no, give it to your brother) where was I? Oh right the dryer, a jacket, Thomas' (Christopher, NO! I gave you the book, leave your brother alone) and so I'm waiting for the dryer, I had to wash Thomas' jacket, he spilled on it!
What are you going to do?

Mom: zzzzz *snort* oh umm that's good.

That is pretty much what happens and it becomes a LOOOOONG hour for my mom I'm sure.

Anytime I have an hour to waste on the phone, I call my mom, because I know she adores our broken phone conversations, and I know she hears things over and over and over again. And only rarely does she ever complain, she's never once hung up on me.....well unless you consider the "Dropped calls" .....or maybe they aren't dropped calls? hmmm

And so this weekend while I head down to San Diego for Bloggy Boot Camp, she's coming with me, and we will get all caught up, like on the $300 designer boots she got for like $80 bucks! I know right!!!

Brought to you by Mama Kat


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Like Mother, Like Son

Laptop Computer?
CHECK
Drink?
CHECK
Snack?
CHECK
Favorite Friend?
CHECK

Like mother
Like son!





Monday, March 14, 2011

What not to wear, Salon Style.

I have been fahionless for a long time!
I am the worst when it comes to fashion, I look at some of the magazines and think, "THIS is what people are wearing?" bbbaaaahahahahahaha

It's all so ridiculous. I don't have designer jeans, I don't have designer shirts, shoes or underwear. I buy what's cheap, what looks decent for the occasion and what I like.

My mom has forever been threatening me with "What Not to Wear" and I am sure they would have a field day with me.

Especially since my closet consists of pre pregnancy, maternity, post maternity and current things. I own more jeans than anything, a ton of sweater I wear to work, t-shirts and about 7 pairs of nice pants for work. Since they don't consider shorts, t-shirts and flip flops to be professional.

Now I don't shop for myself, I rarely buy something for myself, unless I am forced, such as pregnancy and weight loss and all that goes with that.

Most times I shop in my mom's closet or I rely on her to buy me clothes for my birthday and/or Christmas. Which works either way in my favor or totally against me.

I have decided I do not need "What not to wear", I just need a trip to the salon.

I sat in the salon on Saturday night, my stylist is 25, she's tall, she's thin, she's beautiful and she's my friend. She is always dressed so nice, she looks so cute, her hair is done all cute, and she has a 2 year old daughter and a 6 month old son! Yes I want to shove her in the mud!

I sat in her chair, and with all those mirrors you can practically see everyone in the salon. You look in one mirror to another mirror to another mirror and you can see into forever with as many mirrors there are.

I see women stuff themselves in tight jeans and a tight shirt and they look like stuffed sausages, I am forced to look away for fear my retina's will be burned.

Some of the young stylists there, tiny little dresses and heels. HEELS??? You stand ALL. DAY. LONG. Are you kidding me? I'd be looking for a skirt of pair of jeans that had a stool attached to my butt so I could sit down whenever I wanted.

I see a heavier stylist wearing a shirt that is a tank of a sort, and it has one piece that goes down the back. And it's all sequiney....only the straps that is. So of course there is no wearing of bra with this outfit, and OMG. no no no no!! Just NO! So wrong in so many ways!

A middle aged stylist, she's so cute, always looks made up, her hair is perfect, so sweet. And she's in a flapper style spaghetti strap dress and these little half inch peek-a-boo style heel. And she worked like that, all day! So it's not like she just changed because she's going out that night and this was her last client.

Another girl, wearing a white loooooong sweater, comes just above her knees, and she has a chunky black belt on. Okay I get it, it looks okay. But for one, a sweater? Like that? In a salon? Really? Do you realize how hot it gets in a salon on a Saturday with all those blow dryers going? And two....that black thong you are wearing is not keeping your stuff together under there, so seriously? It does not look good! TRUST ME! And? It's not sexy in the least to see your black thong as you lean over to wash your clients, I almost barfed.

And I am not fashion expert! So I do not need "What not to wear" the TV show, nahhh I just need a trip to the salon....I learn it all from there!


Sunday, March 13, 2011

Squirrels and Fish?

Our Sunday was very entertaining.

While eating lunch we watching this little brave guy,

He came right up to our slider and practically begged for Honey Nut Cherrios!

And the boys got a fun little package in the mail from our bloggy friend Myya, her girls LOVE this book and decided to share with the boys.

It's called the Pout Pout Fish

These are the boys' best Pout Pout Face.
OMG Myya, the boys adore this book, this is the new favorite, and Christopher walks around saying "pout pout fish"! Thank You sooo much!

And this is what our Sunday in our City looked like.


Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Silent Lucidity

A Significant song, one that I hear over and over and it reminds me of one thing...
My Brother, about the day of his service, and what happened that night while I lie in bed.... I posted about it HERE if you are interested.

Hush now, don't you cry
Wipe away the teardrop from your eye
You're lying safe in bed
It was all a bad dream
Spinning in your head

Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake you face the day
Your dream is over... or has it just begun?

There's a place I like to hide
A doorway that I run through in the night
Relax child, you were there
But only didn't realize and you were scared
It's a place where you will learn
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind
Commanding in another world
Suddenly you hear and see
This magic new dimension

I- will be watching over you
I- am gonna help you see it through
I- will protect you in the night
I- am smiling next to you, in Silent Lucidity

-spoken during solo-
[Visualize your dream]
[Record it in the present tense]
[Put it into a permanent form]
[If you persist in your efforts]
[You can achieve dream control]
[Dream control]
[I'll do better than that]
[Dream control]

[Help me]

If you open your mind for me
You won't rely on open eyes to see
The walls you built within
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin

Living twice at once you learn
You're safe from pain in the dream domain
A soul set free to fly
A round trip journey in your head
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but...

I- will be watching over you
I- am gonna help to see it through
I- will protect you in the night
I- am smiling next to you....

And I still believe it today, my Brother, close by, always, watching over not only me, but my boys. I have posted before, my brother is a Soul Set Free to Fly. To me, he is my flutterby.
A Flutterby, the ultimate sign of freedom to me. They flutter by and look beautiful!

Whenever there is something significant in my life or in the lives of my boys, guess what we always see? You got it, a Flutterby.

He's always here, watching.....protecting....loving, and he's only a dream away!

Brought to you by MamaKat


Tuesday, March 8, 2011

People and Life

My Mom was "de-hoarding" her house, otherwise known as Spring cleaning.
And she came across these......

She saved these for me.....
The very first People magazine with Mia Farrow on the cover when she stared in The Great Gatsby!

This one came out March 4th, 1974.....37 years ago!

Also, the 1st LIFE Magazine, put out in November 1936!!!

And of course the commerative Special Edition of LIFE Magazine, To The Moon and Back

Talk about WAY back Wednesday! But they will be a nice little keepsake for my boys along with some of the People and TIME magazine's I have saved from memorable things in my life time!




Monday, March 7, 2011

Because he didn't have one

They love each other.....they really do.

When Christopher was born, that was the 1st time I was away from Thomas. And I was gone for 4 days. Christopher didn't come home for several more days after that. And I was worried.

Thomas paid no attention to Christopher when he came home because Christopher slept a lot, and I was worried.

When Christopher was about 6 months old, sitting in his swing and Thomas slapped him for no reason at all, I was worried.

When Christopher started walking I watched Thomas push him down, and I was worried.

I have seen Thomas take toys from Christopher and tease him just for the sake of seeing him cry, and I was worried.

But today.....
I picked up Thomas from school, last week he brought home a plastic fireman's hat. The ones we had at home were to small for their heads now. His teacher handed me another one, I looked at her oddly.

"Thomas asked if I had an extra one, said his little brother really wanted one just like his but he didn't have one, asked if I had an spare so he could take home to his little brother" she said.

I looked at Thomas, and he said "Well he didn't have one Mommy, and I can't wait to give it to him, he'll have one just like mine"

And now, I am not worried anymore.

Something special about Brother Love!


Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Drive Baby Drive

After dropping both boys at their respective schools, I glance at my watch,

8:30

"DAMN! I'm going to be late AGAIN! aarrgghh I hate that, it means I have to stay 15 minutes later" I think to myself.

I can make it, I have 7 minutes, and it's not that far to work, side streets, one lane.....well there is that one school, and the cross walk and that old cross walker guy seems to know when I am late, and he presses that button every. single. time!

No matter, I can still make it, even if he does stop me.

I'm hitting my brakes....WHY???

Seriously? You have GOT to be kidding me. H-E-L-L-O, speed limit is 40, and you are going 32. And? YOU DRIVE A PORSCHE!!!!

I should have been Danica Patrick

I like speed, and I drive Rhonda the Honda. Yes I named my car Rhonda the Honda, don't hate. Yes that is right, I drive a 4 door Honda Civic. And I LOVE Speed. I got my 89 Honda Civic hatchback up to 118 mph, the steering wheel almost fell off, and I only did it once, back when I was 18 and invincible.

My point?

Yes, my point, I love speed, yet I drive a Honda Civic, I'm not saying my little unmodified Rhonda the Honda is going to blow a Porsche out of the water.....but seriously? When I drive faster and blow past you, GOING SPEED LIMIT, you need not be in a Porsche.....perhaps you could have bought a Buick? At least then I would know not to expect to much.

My biggest pet peeve, that really shouldn't bother me, but does, and recently met a client who agrees with me....

If you are going to buy a performance vehicle, such as a Porsche, BMW, Benz, Corvette, Ford Shelby GT (my dream car), even a Nissan Z, please.......please......please.....

LEARN TO DRIVE IT!! Use the performance that you paid all that money for. If you can't? Leave that sucker in the garage to show off when company comes around.

I can't stand it that people spend all this money on a high performance vehicle, it has speed, it has pick up, it has the horsepower to blow my Rhonda the Honda away, and I STOMP all over your car. Heck even my mom knows how to drive her VW Beetle Turbo, Please, it's shameful, for you!

What's your biggest pet peeve? Mamakat's inquiring minds want to know!